"Hole Fillers"

So I went to the movies with my friend Emily. We saw G-Force, and I must say it was really stupid. I suppose you have to be ages ten and under to appreciate it or something. But I had fun none the less. I never go anywhere with friends anymore, it's rather depressing.

On another note, my best friend Hollie is off in California right now. Lucky lucky goose she is. She's there to catch a concert really, but, not just that, she's hoping to catch him. My hopes and prayers go out to her on that matter. I can't wait for the moment when I'm looking at the two of them together saying "I told you so" and thinking "It's about time" total pun intended. Haha. Sigh. It's bound to happen eventually. Unfortunatly, said guy, let's call him Danger...just got out of a relationship with a horrid whore...So, no good for him. But in all reality best window of oppurtunity for Holls. :)

(Put good in - Get good out!) = That's from a commercial I saw before the movie previews today, and I LAUGHED because, of course, my unnatural mind thought of Hollie and Danger. Sigh. I'm so strange. Lol.

Speaking of how strange I am, I have this whole concept of "Hole fillers" which basically means that while you are hurting over one thing, aka the reason there is a hole, you distract yourself with something good, but not as good as the thing that causes the pain.
So, say you like a guy, but he's with someone else...So you start spending more time with another guy, doesn't have to be more then a friend, just someone to take your mind off it and distract you, hence the term hole filler...He fills the hole of hurt. (I know, sounds cheesy)

Well, I am really running out of hole fillers.
I fall in love with a guy, lets call him...Chipmunk. Right, well he's of course with a girl, let's call her Daisy. So, while I am suffering over loving a guy who does not even have a clue cause he's so in love with miss Daisy, I met another guy. Let's call him Wolf. Well, Wolf soon becomes one of my best friends. Then the point comes when Chipmunk decides he's spending forever with Daisy, and I try to accept that. It's hard, but, I do my best. So, while I'm accepting that fact, I'm realizing I've started falling for hole filler best friend Wolf....but nooooo Wolf doesn't want me either, not as more then a friend. So now, I need yet another hole filler....I need a distraction from my original distraction (right when I typed that the TV said the word distraction lol) How sad is that though. Honestly. I can't seem to win.
Now I am trying desperatly hard to find a distraction, hole filler type of person, when to be truthful I don't go out. I don't meet people. I mean, how do you find a distraction in the form of a person when all you do with your time is stay at home and read and write...Sigh. I'm purposefully going through a 'phase' that doesn't do much for me. A Garrett Hedlund phase...I mean, there is only so much that can be distracting about an attractive actor who isn't very famous. I've already watched all the movies he has been in...Now what? Lol...So dissappointing.

My life is a complete bore. My option of taking a year off before college and going to LA is sounding better and more appealing all the time. Haha. I really think that's what I'm going to do...Despite the dissappointment everyone will have in me...It's what I want to do. And it's not like it's a perminant thing. It's not like I won't go to college...Just taking a year off and see how things go...Right?

Bah! It's half past midnight, and my head is near exploding point, so I think I am definitely off to bed. Good night all!

May the stars watch over you!